by Rebeka » Wed Oct 12, 2016 3:09 pm
Consciousness gathered itself, tightened, struggled up through the darkness.
Rebeka's full awareness came rushing back as her head slammed into the bar, her captor's previously safe embrace gone. George went careening backwards - it looked like Tallow was dragging him. A queer mix of emotions followed - then gone, replaced only by fear.
She felt sicker than before, confused and dreamily high. Giant nausea. The same hot reek of blood filled her nostrils. And eclipsing all physical phenomena was the grinning face of injustice: the angry woman had just ploughed her fist into Tallow.
The flower that had been opening all the time Lilliana rushed towards him as if in slow motion turned into a black red hole that sucked Rebeka in, head-first, a long fall that ended when she cracked her fist into the girl's throat and the first warm spurt of the stranger's blood splashed across her knuckles.
That image, actually – Lilliana looking down to see her own blood dotting her dress before she snapped her attention up, blood hot and eyes wild – was the last clear snapshot. Everything after that swims red. Rage (the dark twin of ecstasy) is transcendent, in that you only know you were gone in it by virtue of coming back to yourself. It’s a blank Somewhere Else defined by the return to the all too vivid Here and Now, where you find yourself still saddled with insufficient finiteness, still in dismal possession of fingertips and eyebrows, a face, hands, legs, the whole maddening corporeal package. Maddening because every cell speaks the reality, the new reality – in this case the reality of what Rebaka had lost. Her freedom.
Lucidity comes and goes, however, and almost as immediately as Rebeka thought it, she was instead moving onto how proud she was to defend him, to divert the wild woman's attention from him and onto her. Joy. Joy. This is what joy is. Like those flying dreams the moment you first realise you can do it...
Everyone was moving in slow, stiff snapshots, their limbs jerkily paused. She slid past and around the frenzied female, close enough to touch, to brush, a clear notice: Behind you. This way.